A change in direction...

I am going to have, now that I have settled on using medically (highly) recommended and by more than one physician, to smoke (in my state), legally grown mariuana.....  Sort of funny after a lifetime of being accused of being a drug-seeker.

I am also, going to be writing my book on explaing how I got RSD, my understanding of it, on making sense of why a doctor would tell me that I Will ALWAYS be a "druggie" and the lack of my family's understanding, what I have:  RSD/CRPS.

Fellow pain sufferers know: FEW OTHERS DO.

Oh, I will be "growing-and learning "all about it."


Doctors orders.  I need to be making sure I follow HIS orders. HIM I trust.  Dr. J?  I trust

But oddly enough when I called the pain doctor: they don't give a shit.  I didn't "respond" to treatment:

MY 38TH BIRTHDAY: I DON'T CARE AND WHICH YEARS HAVE I HAD RSD.

VERSUS WHICH ONES.....

I have been properly diagnosed...so what is the fucking point now?

There is ONE thing that works.  No one wants to hear it-but when I have a review next year?

I GET TO SUBMIT MY MMJ EXPENSES: they easily can end up PAYING ME to live here, some have such huge expenses or are on MMJ ahh, just keep a way to keep lights (God) on, the internet going, and spend whatever I can (and save all receipts on all things related to MMJ:  and NEXT YEAR?  HAHAHA, I will have my ounce a week, or damned close, and to HELL with it all!

Oh, this is me now, sorry: